Compassion

God if I have compassion for you
If I have compassion for me
In action, I will never be lost.

I Will Be

God, you do not need to hear my prayers -- they travel nowhere,
because you were with me before I even thought I needed to pray.

I climb you, I live with you, surrounded by you, always in contact with you --
utterly sweetly influenced like a baby is cared for by a Mother.

And like a child, sometime I imagine I am alone and not loved,
even when I know my Mother is just away in other rooms, loving me.

I will be like a Mother to this place you have put me into,
and love your other creatures like you love me.


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Here

God, if I want you, you are here.
If I don't want you, you are here.

Water is water. God is God.
You are in the water. You are out of the water.

Air is air. God is God.
You are in the air. You are out of the air.

Fire, Wind, Life, Death.
You are in it, and out from it.

Courage

Lord, I will be kind towards others
and I will be present to whatever is revealed
for you are my Courage, all the days of my life.

In Doing Anything

God, in doing anything -- how can I say I did not succeed?

Even in the impression of not finding you, God is found.

There Is No Journey Into You

All futility is in myself,
There is no restaint if I surrender into You.

There is no journey into You,
there is no path to be taken, or missed.

You cannot be missed because
You are unavoidable.

You are the ground I walk on,
the air I breath, supporting the thoughts I think.

There is no journey into You.

Let Me Do Any Work, Which is Thy Will

Oh God, save me from the concept of aiming to be noticed, in any way.

Let me do any work, which is thy Will, quietly, and anonymously!

Let me be overlooked by my fellows.

Let me move from the conceit of self, into union, in you.


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Quail Medow

Thank You

Oh God, thank you for this perfectly normal day.

The Lighthouse

Oh Lord, a stalwart lighthouse does not have to think, to shine,
All that is required is for it be straight and have light.

Nor do I have to be intellectual, to comprehend you
and be a beacon in this darkness.

Awareness, God, is a bright flame.
Inspire me to clean the obsucrations of this lense, the mind.

In Deep Comprehension

Oh Lord, I have denied myself Peace and Happiness
by seeking of this in others.

True Contentment resides in You.

In deep comprehension of this, the singularity
is Mysterious, Complete, and Sudden.

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Quail Meadow
April

The Day Before Thanksgiving

in praying with others
i stay sober

in being alone
i practice my addictions

resentments
are nourished by misery

misery is dispelled
abiding through people

loving them
forgiving their faults

loving them
being joyful of accomplishments

loving them
seeing them as equals

It Cannot Be found - It Cannot Be Lost

Not an ounce of lasting Serenity from this World,
influenced by People, Places and Things.

You will go many places, get many things, but you will
never be truly at ease.

You will have Houses --

and boats
and lovers
and money
and titles

and fears
and insecurity
and anger
and lust
and great sadness --

all in the World.

You will take long journeys,
and arrive back at the start.

Serenity comes from within, this Peace
is unconditional.

Free from the outside World, and
inexhaustible, it cannot be lost.

Being inseparable from it, and never separated,
we naturally try to "Find" this.

But it cannot be found, because it cannot
be lost.

Thank You for This Day

Thank you for this day.

May I not hurt people's feelings.

Let me be sensitive to their needs.

Thank you for this day.

Ordinary

Ordinary can be experienced as Unique or Hell,
let me remember the clinging, and the letting go of clinging.

Let me realize all is Ordinary, my Ego or Self
would have it otherwise.

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May 2011

Fundimental Freedom

The fundamental freedom
of knowing you were wrong,
even when you thought you
were acting rightly.

Oh, what a great blessing
to realize this wrong ideal,
or blinding, binding view!

What a great gift to see
this imperfection -- this overwhelming
continuing flaw of character.

Again, you face a new whole day
that has a horizon unbounded
by Earthly limitations,
whole & complete upon itself.

Oh Great Truth

Oh Great Truth
I can do only so much with any mind

Keep my feet on the path
so I may go where I am meant to be

I can go far by feeling
and remembering then forgetting

I will be created
and then I will surrender & be unmade

No Excuses

My vanity is immense,
and fear infects everything I do.

For the first time
I can see this and not deny it.

Daily I am told of my shortcomings --
I listen to those who judge me.

The things they identify are true,
there is no excuse for them.

The Essence of Imprisonment

Deliver me from the isolation of the Self, for surely this is the essence of imprisonment.

Clever and calculating, I fall back into the prison of self.

When I am willful and overbearing, I am not loved, at best I am only needed.

The fetters of this reasoning binds me, but through the insight of this, I can be free.

The Cure

May we all sense the Purpose --
be it through God, or through mediation,
or by action, or through any way
that works, please let us find it.

We'll take this realization
when it happens.

Let it start this day.

Please let it be recognized now,
a cure of this cycle of wanting,
through the ache of it.

Delight

I pray delight never left
and when it comes back
it is accepted

I pray innocence are delight's
wings and generosity
illuminates it

May I not wait long in denial
before I make this place
snug for arrival